Hard to Fight the Light

Even the Bible verses I post on my blog are out to pull me from the funk-i-tude I'm in. Today's verse (in case you don't actually GO to my blog and see these great verses!):

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life--in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing. But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you. So you too should be glad and rejoice with me." Philippians 2:14-18 NIV

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Lord - thanks for the reminder than I need to strive to be a pure child of yours - and therefore must be thankful for all things, even when they aren't the dreams and hopes I asked You for. Your ways are not my ways, but your plans for me are to help me prosper and make me thrive. Thank you for remembering me and for caring in all things.

Why Buy Expensive Toys?

My friend Teri sent this to me and I just HAD to post it [I honestly don't know why SHE didn't! :) ] It takes me back to the days when the boys were little and played for HOURS in the big boxes some of their Christmas toys came in from Ohio. It was litke a fort for them and they LOVED crawling in and around them. Enjoy this little baby - and have a Ripping Good day!!

Man Day

Sunday morning, we had a really great family discussion around 8am (which was really 9am - forgot to reset the clocks and I was late for KidStuf rehearsal - oops!).

I was doing my hair and makeup and the boys were cuddling with Joe on the big bed. Our talk went something like this:

Tom: "I know...you're going to church. Right mommy?"

Me: "Yep - always!"

Tom: "Does that mean we need to go?"

Me: "Only if Daddy brings you, cuz I have to sing..." (looking askance at Joe hoping he'd take the bait)

Joe: "Fat chance."

Me: "So, no then." and I went into the hall to have a little pout where the boys couldn't see me.

Tom (still in with Joe): "YES!"

Me: silent, pouting at Tom as I come back in.

Tom, exuberantly: "It's MAN DAY"

All 3 boys/men: "YES YES YES. It's MAN day! We are MEN and it's OUR day!"

Me: "But...it's MY birthday..." *pouting again*

-short silence -

Tom: "Oh. Well, maybe we'll do something when you come back. But, today is MAN day first!"

Me: *sigh*

Ditto Heidi, Ditto

I read a post from another blogger recently that pretty well sums me up this past 2 weeks (you can read Heidi's sentiments for yourself if you so desire: www.heidichronicles.com/2008/03/05/drifting)

Basically, I feel at odds with my entire life - job, spouse, and definitely kids. Just a general disconnect from who I thought I'd be at this point in my life and where I can see myself going from where I really am.I thought if I put off aknowledging it it would go away, but after reading Heidi's blog I realized maybe it would be better to just get it out here and get it out of my head.

I know part of this is just my monthly down spiral and that next week I'll probably be up again. Part of it is my upcoming birthday and I always have a feeling this time of year that no one really gives a crap to celebrate me or my birth 34 years ago (that's a whole different "pity party" post...). Or maybe it's just the weather and tired of being cooped up in the house with my kids all the time (while we good go outside in the semi-freezing temps, I really don't want to deal with sick kids).

Right now, I just don't care what is the cause behind it as I'm not really caring about anything.

What I'd really like right now is a week vacation - BY.MY.SELF. All alone, me, and a hotel room and a beach somewhere warm. A couple of books for each day, a jacuzzi tub, a weight room, NO PHONE and possibly no computer. A place where I can feel free to go out dancing for a night and then sleep the next day. Where I can do some writing and reading without feeling like I'm neglecting anyone or anything. A place where there's no laundry or dishes, no kids to get ready in the morning or meals to make 3 times a day. Where I can just me - Terese - not mom, wife, co-worker, support guru, worship leader, or any other title that's been put on me. But, for the next 12 years minimum I know I'm not going anywhere alone for more than one night and usually that's not even alone - it's either me and the kids or me and Joe...or all of them! Maybe it's all the testosterone in my house that's getting to me??

So, don't expect a lot of updates or positive feedback on anything tonight or this weekend or maybe for the next few weeks. If you work with me, I'm sorry if I bite your head off. If you're related to me, well, you're probably used to this personality. Tired of it, but still nothing new. Don't take any of it personally - it really has nothing to do with you.

Anyway, just wanted to put that out there. Enjoy YOUR night...

Moments for Myself - 06 March

I can do it...
I will persevere...
I will not blow my top...
I am important...

Do you have a motto that you repeat to yourself? A word or expression that you find yourself repeating over and over? Does it make you fee better about yourself? If so, keep it up! If not, find one that does.

- Moments for Myself, Daily Inspiration Calendar

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What's your motto, your credo, your expression? Please share...